[Ryoden] "God help the outcast" Yay!!!!!
I'm posting this here mostly because Ayu says so, and I can't even protest! T_T
Anyway, here it is... my first RyoDa fanfic...
published =D
Fandom: JE
Title: God help the outcast Pairing: Nishikido Ryo, Ueda Tatsuya (friendship)
Genre: drama
Rating: PG ^^
I'm being innocent here! Summary: [Ok, I suck at summary's xD] Ueda didn't expect that one of his worst days could become a quite good one...thanks to
him. Notes: It's not my first fic. I've wrote something about JE before...but not in English. Now...thanks to
ayu_t threat s, I'm posting this here. It's also betaed by her, so...if something is wrong go blame her ....sorry! Hope you like it, and if it sucks, please tell me xDDD It'll be better that way xD. "
God help the outcast " is a beautiful song from
The Hunchback of Notre Dame , and somehow
I really don't know why xD it inspired me to do this xD.
Comments are ♥
God help the outcast – The Hunchback of Notrê Dame (RyoDa)
Ueda looked at his guitar, as if everything was its fault
He was sitting alone in his apartment, just thinking about too many things at once. He could hear his phone ringing insistently, but he wasn’t in the mood to pick it up. He knew that on the other side of the line, Kame was probably sulking about what the fuck he was thinking to not go to work that day.
He didn’t mind at all.
He just woke up and decided not to go to work. Not to face the world for today. Why? Even Ueda didn't know
After a while, the phone stopped disturbing the peacefulness of his apartment. “Thank god….” He whispered, leaving the bed and heading to the bathroom.
The cold water cleared his mind. He knew that in the previous weeks, his behavior had been really unsteady; one day, he would be bouncing around his mates, completely hyper, and the other, he would be sulking in the furthest place of their dressing room.
“But,” Ueda snorted, “Kame was probably calling because I didn’t go to work, and that messed up the schedule, not really knowing what had happened to me…”
Surrounding by the gelid water, his words hurt him more than ever.
He was feeling kinda lonely in the past months.
His mates had always had popularity and work outside KAT-TUN stuff to do. Kame was everywhere, and Jin doesn’t have to worry about anything; he was lucky enough to not need dramas since he always was at the top. Koki and Maru were already happy with their music, but their manager was starting to give them stuff to do again. Even Junno, with his crappy hyper mood, was always busy, if not with dramas then with his dancing, and in his fewer and fewer free days, he just preferred to spend time with his girlfriend, and Ueda couldn’t blame him.
Probably, if he told this kind of thought to anyone, they’d just look at him like he was a green dog. He was a Johnny for God’s sake! In this last year he has made more projects than he has made in his entire life. He should be proud of himself! But he was not satisfied.
He didn’t need butais, concerts, and drama roles to be happy. Well, not a lot of projects. He just wanted someone to greet when he came home after an exhausting day of work. Someone to hug, to caress softly…
The doorbell rang, startling Ueda.
He thought about just not opening his door, sure that it was only a salesman, but when the ringing was simply too much, he opened his door in a rage. “What the fuck do y… Nishikido?
“Hey, happy to see you too.” Nishikido Ryo was in his doorway, smirking like an idiot… no, scratch that, Nishikido Ryo was in his doorway. This was the apocalypse, for sure. “You know, I would like to go inside; it’s fucking freezing here.”
Ueda just moved to his side, and the younger entered his apartment quickly, taking his boots off and signaling Ueda his soaked jacket “I don’t want to wet your floor; where shall I leave this?”
“It’s raining outside?” Ueda asked, just not knowing what to say “No Ueda, I just like to soak myself with cubes of water before coming to your house; it’s funnier that way, you know. Of course it’s raining; it has been raining all day!
“Oh, yeah…well… Just leave it on the chair; it’ll get dry soon.” Ueda went clumsily to the kitchen to get something to drink while Nishikido made himself comfortable on Ueda´s couch.
Five minutes passed, and neither of them opened his mouth, Ueda looking his own trembling hands, trying to figure what HE was doing in his house and Ryo watching the pouring rain through the window, sipping his beer.
“Bakanishi called me,” he whispered after another five minutes. Ueda looked at him finally. “He told me you weren’t at work today.
“I just… I didn’t feel very well.”
“Bullshit. I know you’d go work even while melting in a fever. I’m not asking you to talk with me if you don’t want to, but it’s not time to mess up.” Nishikido was staring now with something in his eyes that Ueda couldn’t identify. “Neither is it time to make your mates worry, by the way; you don’t have to burden then with your paranoias.”
“Yeah, worry, of course,” Ueda snorted. He knew he should be listening to him, but he simply can’t do it. “They’re way too busy to worry about me”
“What the… Ueda, stop being so childish; if they were not worried about you, Bakanishi wouldn’t have had called me, begging me to check if you were alright.” He was starting to feel irritated. When the fuck had Ueda become someone so immature
“Now you are Akanishi´s servant? I didn’t know you cared about me, Nishikido.” Irony? The younger couldn’t hold on anymore.
“Just shut the fuck up, and listen to me. I don’t care about your stupid stuff; I just care about my best friend who is worried like hell for you. As long as I am concerned, you can commit suicide if you want, but don’t dare to hurt them with your stupid behavior. Are you PMSing today or what? You are an idol, a Johnny; I thought you were stronger than this. I really thought that you wouldn’t go down because of feeling lonely, you know. Maybe I was wrong.”
“What did you just say?”
“What you heard.
“Nishikido…”
“Just grow up! You’re not the only one who feels stressed, lonely, or simply bad!”
“I’m not feeling lonely,” Ueda said, more to himself than to Nishikido.
“Yeah, of course, I told you already. You’re just PMSing today.”
“Did you come to make fun of me?” He was deeply irritated. The last thing he needed was a little brat like Nishikido to finish destroying his mood. “If it’s like that, please go.”
“I’m not making fun of you, Ueda.” Ryo´s tone was serious now. “I just wanted to do a favor for my friend and check up on you. You know, we all need someone who cares about us, and you’re not the exception.”
Ueda didn’t know what to say. He knew he was being childish. A lot, indeed. But… he just couldn’t behave otherwise. Not at that moment. Ryo stood up and took his jacket.
“If I were you… I would call them, assure them that I’m ok, and promise that tomorrow I’ll be there on time for rehearsal. Don’t lose everything you’ve achieved just for insecurities. It isn’t worth it. I speak with the voice of experience.”
“You speak like my father, Nishikido.”
“Just shut up and do as I say. It’s the best for everyone. You wouldn’t like to deal with a sobbing Bakanishi, would you? And you know, Kame is more of a drama queen than you are, and that would be ten times wor…”
“Ok, ok, I got it. Stop making fun of my friends; remember I’m a boxer, and I can beat you up whenever I want.”
“I’d like to see that, princess .” Ryo opened the front door before Ueda could answer and smiled. “You’ve just said it, your friends. Don’t forget you’re not alone, Tatsuya.”
Ueda smiled at the closed door and picked up his phone. Maybe Ryo was right.
One…
Two…
Three...
“Kame? It’s me, Ueda. I’m sorry for skipping the practice…”
Thank u for read! ♥